We are in the "books"

So, we received our paperwork today for B's surgery. It's a huge packet with surgery info. and instructions for us about what to do 1 month prior to surgery, 2 weeks prior, 1 week, and 1 day before surgery. It lists our pre-op apt. date, surgery date, and post-op apt. date. It pretty much solidified that it is all going to really happen.
We are in the "books."
We are scheduled.
It is going to happen.
My thoughts on a daily basis.... I'm ready for it one moment, and another moment I am not...

It's going to be a very long 50 days... (my hubby counted out the days till surgery)

While going through the packet, the hard part was reading the 2 pages of risks and complications for the surgery. I know they need to include it, but it's really hard to read all the horrible things that "could possibly" happen. This is when I remind myself to trust God and remember that He is in total control. God created B with his special ear and entrusted this sweet, little boy to Joel and I to love and take care of. I feel so blessed to have him in our lives and feel priveleged to be able to go on this journey with him... it just freaks me out, to be completely honest, to start this next stage with surgeries.

Oh yeah, in case you were wondering exactly what precedure he is having, here is the medical term:

Reconstruction of External Auditory Canal for Congenital Atresia, Tympanoplasty, Tympano-ossiculoplasty, Split-thickness Skin Graft, Continuous Intraop 7th Nerve Monitoring, Baseline Electrophysiologic Study, Microdissection surgery

...Crazy I know